Being ME!

Turning 30 has changed me.

Honestly!

I have spent the last 25 years (I don't remember pre school years) wanting and dreaming to be popular.

Hating that my shyness made me seem stuck up and unapproachable.

Hating that my laugh could be irritating, as one "friend" kindly pointed out behind my back.

Hating that I always felt like an outsider and desperately just wanting to be cool! 

Then came the age of social media! 

Oh boy!

Sometimes it is as bad as being in school - only you can't hear my laugh! 

Where we are judged on how many followers we have, who has the prettiest photos, who has the most instagrammable home, cutest kids...the list could go on! 

But I became hooked! 

Trying all the tips and tricks to get more followers...to build my social following. 

And to what gain?

Ok yes, I have made new connections and my little account it slowly growing but I was becoming obsessed...

absent...

inauthentic...

forced...

and the truth is that the posts that got the most likes were ones that I didn't plan out. Just normal, everyday posts. Posts of the real me! The stay at home mum me. The crap housewife me. The one who loves her kids to bits me. The lover of all things grey me. JUST ME! 

This is something that I have been thinking about for a few weeks now!

You see, what I want you to see from my Instagram and this blog is ME!

I will probably never have thousands of followers...

I will probably never have that perfect Insta house...

I will probably never have this whole motherhood thing nailed...

But what I do want you to see is someone who is

honest...

open...

vulnerable...

encouraging...

passionate...

a little strange...

I want you to see ME! 

I don't like people based on what they have...I like people based on who they are! 

So really, I am OK with not being popular, because if being popular means that I have to compromise being ME then I'm not interested! 

I have had enough of not feeling "good enough"!

Because what I have is ENOUGH! 

So follow me, unfollow me, like me, don't like me...thats up to you! 

I'll just be here in my corner raising my boys and building my home - for us, not for Instagram! 

Gxx