SOS...

SOS...

Thursday, June 28, 2018

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It's back!

It's taking over!

Everywhere I turn, it's waiting on me!

I feel like I am drowning in it!

I feel like it is consuming me!

It wakes me in my sleep!

It consumes my thoughts in the day!

That ugly thing that rears its nasty head, just when I think I have overcome it. 

Just when I think I have a handle on it.

Just when I think I have everything under control.

That horrible word...anxiety.

I have always been a nervous person. I am shy, I am awkward, I panic easily but thats not what this is.

This is an overwhelming feeling of sheer fear.

Total.Fear.

Fear that makes me say No!

Fear that makes me back out of plans.

Fear that keeps me tucked in my safe place.

Fear that disturbs my sleep.

Fear that sends sheer panic through my bones.

Fear that is all consuming.

Anxiety is different for everyone.

It affects us in a variety of ways.

It comes.

It lingers.

It goes.

What annoys me the most?

That I keep using the word 'I"

Because that it my problem!

I keep taking my eyes off of the One who sustains me!

The One who promises to NEVER EVER leave me!

The One who has already overcome!

The One who says "DO NOT be ANXIOUS about anything."

My Strength.

My Saviour.

My Sustainer.

I know that this is just season.

That it will pass.

More of these seasons will come.

I am sure of it.

There is something that I am more sure of though

I am sure that my God will sustain me.

I am sure that He will see me through it.

I am sure that He will hold my hand every step of the way.

Why am I so sure?

He hasn't failed me yet!

No! You can't steal my JOY!

No! You can't steal my JOY!

Saturday, June 9, 2018

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No!

You can't have it!

I'm not giving it to you!

You can't steal my joy!

This week on Instagram, I briefly touched on the subject of comparison. 

It has been playing on my mind ever since! 

The only way I can try and shift it is quite simply by writing this down.

Social Media can be a life sucker!

(Don't get me wrong, I love it - otherwise, why would I even bother?)

But it sucks you in! 

You become fascinated and maybe even slightly obsessed with those that you follow...

Their lives, their clothes, their homes, their pets, their hair, their holidays... you get my drift.

Then comes the comparisons.

The wishing.

The wanting.

The jealousy.

The feelings of not being good enough.

The feelings of not having enough.

It's draining.

It's life sucking.

It was Theodore Roosevelt who said that "Comparison is the thief of Joy" and I have say I'm in total agreement with Ole Teddy! 

That is why I'm saying today that I have had enough!

No more comparing!

No more competing!

My faith is something that is very important to me. It is my foundation. It is what is at the core of inner most being. 

My Joy shouldn't come solely from pretty flowers, restyling our home, raising our kids and being the most desperate housewife in all of Co.Down. 

My Joy shouldn't come from how many followers I have, how many likes my photo gets, who comments on my posts.

No!

My Joy comes from the Lord.

My Maker.

My Father.

My Guide.

He should my reason for living, for being, for doing.

My joy should come from knowing my worth in Him.

I shared this lovely quote the other day and it has really resonated with me;

"A flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it. It just blooms" 

How blooming marvellous! 

And that is where you will find me! 

In my wee corner slowly blooming and sharing my little loves with you! 

Grace xx