SOS...

It's back!

It's taking over!

Everywhere I turn, it's waiting on me!

I feel like I am drowning in it!

I feel like it is consuming me!

It wakes me in my sleep!

It consumes my thoughts in the day!

That ugly thing that rears its nasty head, just when I think I have overcome it. 

Just when I think I have a handle on it.

Just when I think I have everything under control.

That horrible word...anxiety.

I have always been a nervous person. I am shy, I am awkward, I panic easily but thats not what this is.

This is an overwhelming feeling of sheer fear.

Total.Fear.

Fear that makes me say No!

Fear that makes me back out of plans.

Fear that keeps me tucked in my safe place.

Fear that disturbs my sleep.

Fear that sends sheer panic through my bones.

Fear that is all consuming.

Anxiety is different for everyone.

It affects us in a variety of ways.

It comes.

It lingers.

It goes.

What annoys me the most?

That I keep using the word 'I"

Because that it my problem!

I keep taking my eyes off of the One who sustains me!

The One who promises to NEVER EVER leave me!

The One who has already overcome!

The One who says "DO NOT be ANXIOUS about anything."

My Strength.

My Saviour.

My Sustainer.

I know that this is just season.

That it will pass.

More of these seasons will come.

I am sure of it.

There is something that I am more sure of though

I am sure that my God will sustain me.

I am sure that He will see me through it.

I am sure that He will hold my hand every step of the way.

Why am I so sure?

He hasn't failed me yet!